Tomorrow

I'm calling my RE tomorrow! Hells Ya! I kinda have a feeling that I'm ovulating ::lost of EWCM:: but that could be my PCOS deceiving me! No matter what I am calling tomorrow and see if they can get me in next week for blood work to see if I did ovulated, if not I will start progesterone to jump start my period, which in turn means starting a new cycle of meds, blood work and u/s. I'm SO so SO excited! I'm ready to be pregnant with one (or two..sorry hun, it might happen) little bundle(s) of healthy, sticky joy! Fingers and Toes crossed that soon we will be with babe!

I'm READY

I'm READY to:


Jump backing on the trying for baby #2 bandwagon!

I'm ready to call my RE on Friday.

I'm actually excited to start over! A clean start!

I'm ready for my blood work and ultrasounds

I'm ready for my anxious TWW

I'm ready to see two lines, the word PREGNANT or a plus sign!

I'm ready to have a healthy, sticky baby growing within me.

I'm ready to start new, not feel bad for myself and not miss my baby B so much.

I'm ready feel full and happy again.

I'm ready not to feel broken!

I'm SO ready!!

Come on JULY

I am ready to officially move on. Come ON July 1st! That is the day I get to call my RE and see whats up. I've been bleeding like a period and then it stops and then comes back so right now I think my hormones are screwy! I know everything will get evened out and explained in a couple weeks. I can't wait. I really hope month #1 is another lucky one for us because I'm SO ready for baby #2! This time, I hope he/she sticks around a little longer! I just pray all the time for the strength to do this again and I hope baby B is up there right now picking out the perfect brother or sister (healthy and stronge) for their sister Claire! Come on JULY 1st, where are you?!

A Vivid Dream

One of my mom's on my facebook July 2009 group, just told me that she had a vivid dream about me getting my bfp. Wouldn't that be AWESOME! I really hope she's correct. I would LOVE a natural bfp but I'll take a medicate one too. Anything that will get us a healthy, sticky, long lasting bean. A girl can dream right, well I'm praying and dreaming A LOT these days. Thank goodness I have C.C., she keeps me going and gets my mind off of a lot. I'm so thankful for her. Well, here's to hoping a sticky bfp is in my, I mean our future! Maybe we should start BD a little more! ;)

Blah

Blah. I'm blah today. It sucks. I should be pregnant but I'm not. It's just one of those Mondays that have me down. On a happy note, a person I know from Facebook after 4 years of  ttc is pregnant, natural. That is proof that miracles can happen. Hopefully my miracle happens soon!

I think I just got done with my period but who knows. I would love to get pregnant on our own but I'm not holding my breathe. Either way July will come and our journey to baby #2 can continue and hopefully, God willing have a "happy ever after" ending!

Beta 2 & 3

Beta 2: 60
Beta 3: 8

So soon I will officially not be "preggo" any more! I can't wait to get the next show on the road. Today was a sad, feeling sorry for myself kind of day. I just think about how I should be almost 15 weeks pregnant and realize, nope, not pregnant. It sucks, it's a horrible feeling to feel! Next period or early July we will get the ball rolling again (if it doesn't happen naturally this month - fingers and toes crossed, how awesome would that be!).